Bucket List Diary: Imagine Stillness
“I’m nowhere when I’m without you” Ben Bronfman
I am always running; to or away from what I cannot place. I captured the art of stillness once when I was with The Ex but I got restless and needed to move again.
I have been running in fast motion for a year and a half since my breakup and I am finally realising that everything around me is going to be okay. I am going to be okay.
I discovered this video which was used for a Halston runway clip of Fall 2009 “You’re the One” by Ben Bronfman on the Imagine Fashion website.
It’s beautiful and very indicative of my passing year: constantly moving to avoid feeling out of place.
After 72 hours of constant partying last weekend which included attending the pop-up gallery event by the young art curator Nolan Browne in Bloomsbury www.popup-gallery.co.uk, having a most spectacular dance-off with The Lawyer at a private party with New York DJ’s and Amy Sacco at Bungalow 8; it all culminated at the Vestal Vodka launch party at Harvey Nichols. www.vestalvodka.com
At the Vestal Vodka after-party at the W Hotel, I was dancing with Madame Dior a fur-adorned Mr Italian PR in the middle of the floor wearing a top hop being surrounded by all the party people who attended my Bucket List Diary: Fantastic Fashion Fantasy Uncovered party including the lovely fashion designers/sisters Felder and Felder and I realised something: I don’t need to run anymore. Everything changes on its own and none of us can control it.
It is the end of a particular time where The Voguette, Blondie, and I were revelling and enjoying life with a carefree air but it has ended and a new cycle has begun. We have all suffered tragedies, lost loved ones, endured break-ups and made changes in our career paths.
- The Voguette is moving to Germany
- The Ex is due to celebrate his birthday in New York with his new girlfriend.
- Blondie is still in hospital a month later but, you know what? She is going to be fine too. (I even smuggled in a magnetic Designer Beaver to cheer her up)
And I am finally ready for that part of my life that I have been running away from for a while: stillness.
Imagine that (;
X The Publisher
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April 6th, 2011 at 3:29 pm
Amazing!
April 6th, 2011 at 7:43 pm
I have no doubt you will take to ‘it’ as beautifully and effortlessly as you have to everything else in your life x
April 7th, 2011 at 11:03 am
Baby, thank you so much. It means so much that you even read my blog. Your kindness and selflessness is why we will be friends and you will have a special place in my heart forever x
April 12th, 2011 at 6:51 pm
Oh my – I remember those days … the partay days … now the partays are different. Then they were everpresent. Maybe it’s not necessarily about stillness – though stillness is fantastic, maybe it’s just clarity, and sometimes all the music turns into noise … clarity and stillness – go for it!!
August 8th, 2011 at 6:10 pm
A wonderful job. Super helpful infomariotn.